Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Well, I was going to try to write something tonight...something about how things with Sam just aren't developing, and how I'm starting to think that they never will, and how that's probably for the best anyway...

or something about how I was ready to drown my old Italian lady prep cook in the dish sink yesterday and how that made me feel like an absolute douche and how I dealt with that feeling in the time-honored tradition of heavy drinking...

or something about how fucking tired I am and how sometimes I wish I'd just stayed a cop and how...

never mind.

Fact is that I don't have anyone to vent to. I just really miss having someone to come home to, to have somebody to listen to, somebody who will in turn listen to me, somebody to make me a fucking sandwich every once in a while.


John Gray said...

u need to write more matey
I miss your writings

do me a favour

stop for 40 minutes tomorrow
take the phone off the hook,
forget the kitchen
and write ( you are good at it)

Maria said...

And I was sitting here thinking how fucking much I wish that Bing would not insist on pouncing on me and asking me how my day was, did I miss her, would I like her to make me some dinner?

You've given me food for thought.

But, I confess that right now..with a huge family holiday dinner looming? I sort of wish that I lived alone. And how petty and stupid is THAT?

Eric said...

John, I'll really try.

Maria, it's neither petty nor stupid. I've felt exactly the same before. More than once. With more than one woman.
Fact is I won't be alone tomorrow, for the last four years or so I've cooked Thanksgiving dinner at the cafe and invited all the "strays" to eat. We always set up a TV and a gaming console and either play games or watch movies and people come and go all day.
And of course, the morning after posting this I get a text from Sam asking if I want to go to coffee...I really don't know where this is going, but I know that it's worth sticking around we'll give it some more time.

Maria said...

Happy Thanksgiving dude. Just home from the family dinner and I didn't shoot anyone so it was a good day.

And you know, the best relationships are sometimes the ones that require that big leap of faith. So, go get coffee and sit back and let the thing unfold. Because in reading through the lines of all your posts and all our e-mails...I think this girl does something crazy to your heart. Sit back and enjoy, you deserve a little happiness, don't you think? Me too.

John Gray said...

sometimes the things we do wrong in relationships is THINK TOO MUCH

I agree with Maria
sometimes the best thing to do is just go with the flow..... but "going with the flow "does not mean doing nothing....

with the risk of sounding like a Jewish Momma
"enjoy each other already!!"

Eric said...

Thanks guys, but I don't think I'm what she wants...I don't think she knows what she wants.
She does do something crazy to my heart though.